Monday, December 18, 2006

As-salaamu 'alaikum wa rahmatullaahi wa barakaatu,
This morning my mom woke me up to tell me that my grandfather had a heart attack last night.
He's in hospital now, apparently very sick. He's not allowed to have many visitors - just my grandma, and my aunt, and my dad - so I haven't been able to see him yet.

Please, PLEASE make du'aa for him, that he gets better really quickly!!!!!

Inna lillaahi wa inna ilayhi raaji'oon.
To God we belong, and to Him we return.


Update: My dad just called to say that my grandpa has been stablized, and he should be sleeping now... subhan'Allah... it seems so unreal... when my mom told me about his heart attack this morning, the first thing I said was inna lillaahi wa inna ilayhi raaji'oon - but I was still calm and collected and for some reason I didn't feel anything, no grief or sorrow or anything. Even now, I haven't been able to shed a tear... like I said, it's unreal. Maybe it's because I haven't seen him yet.

I'm having all these crazy thoughts... like, what if he dies? How will I feel? Will I burst into tears and feel as though the world is about to end? Or, as usually happens when I feel grief, will I go all silent and cold inside and reflect upon it in a freakily logical way, trying to ignore the ache in the pit of my stomach?

I just realized that for all the time I've spent with my grandfather, for all that I'm his favourite grandchild - his princess, as he liked to call me - I honestly don't know much about his history, just a few bits and pieces. I don't know about his childhood... his adolescence... goodness, I don't even know how he met my grandmother!

There's absolutely nothing I can do right now. I can't go visit him in the hospital because he's not allowed many visitors. I should be doing my schoolwork, but I can't really concentrate on it. So instead I'm surfing the 'Net... reading the latest posts of my favourite Muslim blogs... and you know what's scary? I can still smile and laugh and be distracted by what they have to say. My grandfather is in hospital, and I can let myself be distracted by trivial things. It seems so... wrong...

Ya Allah... whether You decide to let him remain on this earth for a while longer, or if You call for his return... please, let whatever happen, be for the best. Please, dear God, grant my patience and strength and let my whole family be able to get through this... especially my grandmother... please, please, please!!

14 comments:

Anonymous said...

May Allah grant him His Shafi, which leaves no trace of illness. Ameen.

Anonymous said...

Insha-Allah, he is in my du'as, as is the rest of your family.

iMuslim said...

Don't worry little Mouse.

It is difficult to know how to feel at such times - remaining calm is infinitely better than going crazy with grief.

You have firm belief in Allah and His promise for the believers, and thus it helps you not to see death as the end, but rather as a period of transition. Even in sickness there is the blessing of expiation for us. There is no need to grieve. Just make dua as you are already doing.

I pray for the best for you and all your family. You will have plenty of opportunity to catch up with gramps and all your friends and family when you are in Jannah, with no fear of interruptions or bad health.

That thought cheers me up when i start to think about all the relatives that I never had a chance to spend time with.

May Allah grant us all Jannah al-Firdows. Ameen.

Anonymous said...

As salaamu alaikum wa rahmatuAllahi wa barakatuh sweet sis,

He is in my du'as inshaAllah. May Allah give him good health and make it easy for you and your family and grant you all Jannat ul Firdous, ameen.

your sister,

RoH

Anonymous said...

Good, one less muzzie in the world.

You know, the doctors who are treating your gramps is probably a JOOOOOOO

Is that Halal?

Christian Sunni said...

Mouse, my prayers are with your grandfather and family.

Love,
CS

Christian Sunni said...

Anonymous, you must be really proud of yourself to leave that disgusting message on the blog of a teenage girl who's grandfather is critically ill in the hospital. What a stand up guy you are.

Safa said...

May Allah grant him Shafi...Ameen! I'll keep him in my dua's....

Ignore the comment of the harper.....

Anonymous said...

Christian Sunni,

Had a look at your site and since you are an anti-semitic Islamofascist you have zero right to call anything I say disgusting. Hopefully some JOOOO will splatter your brains against a wall, if the Gods will it.

Anonymous said...

Anonymous,

The joy a believing soul experiences when it leaves this world far exeeds any pleasure an individual such as yourself may feel at the thought of one less muslim.

I humbly ask you to educate yourself on Islam, or at the least show some respect.

To answer your question, it is perfectly fine to seek medical attention from a person of any faith, as long as the treatment they prescribe is permissible.

Muslims should strive to adopt the character of Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him). When he suffered verbal abuse he did not return with the same. If you continue in this disrespectful vein in order to cause trouble, do not expect the same response from us. You are wasting your time. Time that could be spent on far nobler pursuits.

I pray that God guides us to the truth which can only lead to eternal happiness and peace. Ameen

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Molly said...

One thing, Mouse, I want to say that there is nothing wrong with being able to smile during this. Your grandfather loves you and he wants you to be happy no matter what. And so does God, I believe.

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